hello and welcome to our viewers in the united states and around the world. this is a special edition of "cnn newsroom." i'm jonathan mann. >> and i'm isha sesay. dzhokhar tsarnaev is talking to authorities. >> and it's been eight years since this video has become the first one ever uploaded to

youtube. >> let's start with the latest developments. we're learning much more about the bombings last week. >> the information is coming from the sole surviving suspect in the explosion. from the hospital bed joe hadzh tsarnaev is communicating. >> he's saying his older brother, tamerlan, was the driving force. >> he said no international terror groups were involved. dzhokhar indicated that he and his brother acted alone. he knew of no more bombs were hidden. we also have more pictures and surveillance photos of him leaving a bank machine in watertown. they allegedly car jacked a driver. a few hours later a gun fight erupted and dzhokhar's older

brother, tamerlan was killed. later dzhokhar tsarnaev was captured. let's go to erin mcpike at the boston hospital where dzhokhar is being treated. he's under restraint, handcuffed to his bed. i gather that hospital room was a busy place. what was going thereon? >> reporter: that's right. at about 11:30 on monday morning it was the initial court hearing at his bedside. a judge and several attorneys came in to read tsarnaev both his rights and explain the charges that have been filed against him. now since that time, that lasted only about 10 or 15 minutes, but every couple of hours federal investigators have come into his room with the presence of doctors and have asked him some questions not just about if there were other explosive devices, if there were other attacks that were being planned,

but also these other questions about who else might have been involved or who else might have known about the attacks that they planned to carry out and did last monday. >> now there are all kinds of questions about how this would proceed legally. one of the biggest ones was whether he would be reminded of his right to an attorney and whether an attorney would appear. has he got a lawyer yet? >> so i have the transcript of the court hearing right here, and actually the judge went through those rights twice and also asked if he could afford a lawyer and the one answer that tsarnaev was able to speak was, no, and so he was presented with a public defender who has been representing him through these questionings. >> now the charges against him are extraordinarily serious. he's in very big trouble, but from what you've been able to learn about those meetings, is he cooperating with authorities in the investigation? >> reporter: it appears that that is the case.

throughout this hearing he was nodding and answering the judge's questions and then also through these continuing investigations, the federal investigators coming into his room asking questions, he has been able to communicate a number of things that we're picking up from him, including that his brother, as we mentioned, was the driving force and that no other terrorist groups were involved. so he is giving this information so he does appear to be cooperating, indeed. >> earin mcpike. we're hearing from the s.w.a.t. members. they spoke with anderson cooper about how it all unfolded. >> tell me about friday night. when was the first indication you got that the suspect had been found? >> we gathered up the men that we had left at that point and we started rolling to that location to help in any way that we could. we got out there and several agencies out there, already the

suspect was cornered and had been hiding in this boat. different agencies that were on scene were trying less lethal means to get the subject to turn himself in. i believe they tried numerous flash bang grenades. they tried some -- they tried to gas him out of the boat. it just wasn't working. >> did you know at the time whether the suspect was conscious or not? >> we were getting reports from the -- i believe it was a state police helicopter, steady reports from them that there was movement inside the boat. they were using the infrared to look through the canopy, the tarp that was on it. >> they've released those images. we've seen those infrared images. there were reports sometimes he was moving and sometimes he wasn't moving. >> correct. he was going in and out of consciousness because he was losing a lot of blood. >> which is how the homeowner found him was the blood trail leading up to the boat. he saw a slice in the canopy. he took a peek inside and he

made his 911 call. >> at that time did he know if he was armed or if he had explosives on him zm. >> he had gotten into a firefight earlier that day with some of the officers who had responded to the scene, some of our patrol officers. we know for sure there was a weapon there. >> you have to assume with the events of the last week that there were explosives as well. >> so you guys get together to come up with a plan. what was the plan? what was the idea? >> it was basically just to get across that danger zone. there was an open area from where the house was that was our final line of cover if he starts firing at us. we have no protection getting across that danger zone so we had a kevlar shield up in front of us and we all lined up in a stack behind that shield to cross that danger zone. >> were you thinking you're going to have to go into the boat to get him out or was your understanding he was going to come out? >> it was our understanding that he was giving himself up and he was sitting on the edge of the

boat with one leg hanging over the side. >> when you first saw him what did you think? >> this is the target. this is the job. we're almost done with this and let's do it. you know, let's just do what we're trained to do. you know, this is the suspect. we're trained to go in and apprehend him. you could see one hand was clear. each time he went back his hand went down inside the boat out of our view and i know everybody here, we've spoken about it, each time he did that we had to assume that he was reaching for either a weapon, a firearm, or some type of explosive ignition device to try to draw us in and then take us out in a suicide-type manner. he did that a couple of times as we were still approaching towards him. we got close enough that at one point where both of his hands were up because of the rocking back and forth, both of his hands were up we could see that there were no weapons in them, no ignition devices. we broke away from the shield protective cover and we just

rushed him. we put hands on him, grabbed him, pulled him off the boat down onto the ground. at that point it just became a -- i don't want to say typical, but arrest situation. you check the suspect for weapons. of course, him we had to check him for explosives. take his sweatshirt off because he may have been wearing a suicide vest. at that point we didn't know if the boat had been rigged explosives. as soon as he was handcuffed, we picked him up and ran like hell to get him away from the boat and got him to where the medics were and federal agents who were taking time in custody. >> there was a report he was shot in the throat. unclear whether that was self-inflicted or at what point. could you tell that? >> i did see a throat injury. to me it looked more like a knife wound. it wasn't a punk tur hole, it was a slice where it was spread

open, possibly a piece of shrapnel from one of the explosives they were using the night before. it didn't look like a bullet wound to me, it looked more like a cut. >> what goes through your mind? you had focused for a week on finding this guy. you've seen horrible things on that monday and, you know, you had been working around the clock. to know that he's finally apprehended, what does it feel like? >> it's a relief, but we're not sure it's over yet. we're still in that mode. we haven't a chance to sit down and watch the news and think about and see what's actually going on so we're still in that heightened state, as i'm sure everybody is. maybe in a couple of weeks we'll get a chance to sit down and reflect on what actually happened. >> fascinating insight there. cnn's anderson cooper talking with members of the s.w.a.t. team who put boston bombing suspect dzhokhar tsarnaev into custody. they don't want to take all the credit for capturing him. they emphasize it was a team

effort. still to come, canada follows an alleged terror plot. >> we'll tell you what police say was behind it and what it could have meant to the u.s. as well.

it is 4:13 a.m. here on the east coast. welcome to a special edition of "cnn newsroom." >> we're going to take a moment to look at some other major international stories that are moving at this hour.

a developing situation following in tripoli. a bomb has exploded outside the french embassy. >> two security guards were injured in the attack. witnesses tell cnn that the front wall of the embassy was blown off. >> news agencies report the blast apparently came from a car bomb. we'll have more details on the story. we're working to get them as best we can. authorities in canada say they've foiled a planned terror attack. >> on monday two men were arrested and charged with receiving information from al qaeda networks in iran in hopes of bombing a canadian railway line. >> the chairman of the house counter terrorism subcommittee said the train was bound from canada to the u.s. iran denies information that al qaeda was operating within its borders. >> the members were receiving support from al qaeda in iran. i can tell you that there's no information to indicate that these attacks were state

sponsored. >> authorities say the two men arrested are not canadian citizens but declined to comment on their nationality. they also said there's no connection to the boston bombings. tom foreman has more on the canadian terror plot from cnn washington. >> reporter: the target for this alleged terror plot was the via train system in canada. it's an inner city connecting system. it's used by 4 million canadians. it's from toronto and montreal. in fact, that's where these two men were arrested. this is what authorities say they were up to, that they were watching trains coming into and out of toronto surveying the tracks, surveying the trains themselves, looking for a weak spot that they could attack and try to derail a train. this is one of the very, very busy hubs there. if i take you down to street level you can see just exactly how urbanized this area might be. this is the via train sign telling you where you are. the belief was that if they had been able to get into this train

station and in fact derail a train, it would have amounted in heavy loss of life and real damage and yet authorities say they managed to stop the plot in time. now they'll have to prove that case in court. >> we shall be watching closely. the u.s. transportation security authority is holding off on its plan to allow passengers to carry small knives on commercial aircrafts just three days before the rule was supposed to go into effect. the tsa was under pressure that the change might compromise safety. they want to further review the comments from the public. just ahead, we head deep into the desert for this. >> 4, 3, 2, 1. >> an up close look at the strength of a cooker bomb blast.

welcome back to a special edition of "cnn newsroom." our main story this hour is the aftermath of the boston tir r t attack. it's 20 minutes after the hour. for a moment we're going to look back. within days after the bombing police found the suspect. >> gunfire and explosions filled the air asus spekt number one was killed in a gun fight with watertown police last week. >> reporter: i believe they have the suspect in custody. i'm going to get down. we have officers right now pointing their guns at somebody.

>> back up. back up. >> reporter: they're backing up though. they're backing up. they're backing up. everybody is running here. the police are backing up. they've got ten officers with their guns drawn but they're backing up and they're running back towards us. we're all taking cover behind the news vehicles. even the police are taking cover. i'm going to run back. i'm too close to comfort. >> go. go. go. >> it was an astonishing thing to see on television, but imagine actually being there at the scene. wolf blitzer spoke to williams about his harrowing experience. >> i was behind the door of our news vehicle at the time when all of this was going on, there was our news car and about five police officers. this is before the army of police came in, so i started behind our door but then when i saw the officers with their guns backing up i knew we were in a pretty serious situation so then i would run and get behind another car. you know, i was saying in our

coverage that the bullets when we arrived, they were going by us. your first instinct is to take cover wherever you can. >> i take it you're not necessarily a war correspondent. you don't have a lot of experience covering gunfire like this. >> not at all. you've been in those zones, i have not. seeing the officers with the helmets and putting their bullet proof vests on and i guess that's when the journalistic instinct kicks in to stay safe but thoen carry the store yif at the same time. >> how scared were you? >> at the time i think i was just in the mode of doing my job, of getting the information as accurately and as aggressively as i could. it wasn't until after the fact and especially learning that within feet of us was, indeed, the bombing suspect. when i learned that, i think that's when it sunk in how vulnerable we were in that situation. >> yeah, that's a normal kind of thing.

your adrenaline is pumping. you're in the middle of it and then later you say to yourself, wow. >> exactly. >> it's pretty scary, pretty frightening. you were in a dangerous, dangerous situation. that report we saw was that live on tv? were you filming it for air later? >> no, that was live while it was happening. i have to give credit to my photographer who was able to capture the pictures. he was taking partial cover. we were live on the phone as it was happening and, frankly, we didn't know what was going on. before we even got to the scene the sound of explosions were so intense. we could hear it in our car. we had the police radios blaring. we heard boom, boom. we heard gunfire exchanged and a lot of yelling. intense. >> you didn't know this was the climax, this was the end of that hunt? >> didn't know it. didn't know it until later on, we just knew that whatever was going on it wasn't your typical

shooting. it was more than that. we heard the explosions. we heard 200 rounds of gunshots. we knew it was something big. we knew we were close, but as you would do as well, the first instinct was to get on the air. it was important. watertown is a town of eight square miles. everybody heard it and wanted to know what was going on. it was our job to let them know what was going on. >> the police let you stay there? they weren't pushing you aside? they weren't saying, get out of here and everything like that? >> police were so focused. when we got there, there was like five officers. their number one priority was protecting themselves, the public, apprehending themselves doing what they needed to do. they didn't even notice us in the beginning. it wasn't until a minute or two of our coverage that they were like, get that back, along with everybody else, because at this point there were -- we actually became trapped in the crime scene because where we parked we had police cars all around us. the perimeter hadn't been set up yet. they did get us out of there once they, i guess, kind of got

control of themselves. >> a handful of cops and a tv crew caught in the middle of it. adam williams speaking to wolf blitzer. the tsarnaev brothers family has deep ties to chechnya. tamerlan went home last year drawing interest from the fbi at russia's request. nick payton walsh has more. >> reporter: she knew the alleged elder boston bomber as a child and saw tamerlan grow up and leave for america. but strangest was his return to here last year. >> tamerlan taught everything to himself. we were happy because he didn't start doing drugs or alcohol. now he doesn't speak to other women he's not related to. they're not important to him because it's a sin to even look them in the eye. she saw him for four of the six

months he was here and he went to chen eya twice. >> i don't know where his relatives lived. i do know that village was bombed in the second war. as pictures of boston played out around the world. later that week they rang her again allegedly when they were on the run just the day before tamerlan died. the day before they spoke and it was like always. mommy, everything's fine with us. mommy, we're totally fine. mommy, that's what they call her. >> reporter: we miss your warmth and caress, they said. tamerlan said, mommy, i love you. and dzhokhar's voice came in

from a distance saying, mommy, i love you. she saw the boy's father to see them on the news for the first time. and then for some reason he tells me, patimas, this is dzhokhar and tamerlan, pointed to a screen, it is tamerlan from the blue jacket, dzhokhar from the white jacket. i say, these are guys with a backpack in these photos. it can't be them. he said, i don't know, patimas, these are my children. and then his wife grabs the tv screen and starts screaming, it can't be. it can't be happening. i don't believe it. the children are there. i would have cried out myself. nick payton walsh, cnn. in fact, family and friends have been a key part of the investigation so far as the fbi

tries to piece together every bit of information it can. >> but it's been hard to get a view of what the brothers are like because there are a lot of conflicting views and opinions. take a listen to the suspect's mother. >> impossible. impossible for them -- for both of them to do such thing really, really, really feeling this is not an act. my son would not kill it so i would know whoever would be, you know, knowing -- anyone who would know, it would be me. >> mother says it's impossible. she said it's a setup. she knows them better than anyone and it's all a mistake. >> you can imagine how she must feel. here's a high school classmate. >> he was a regular teenager to me. he was quiet. you know, just regular teenager.

i didn't suspect anything. he was on the wrestling team. he went to parties with, you know, other students. yeah. he went to the prom. regular pretty much. nothing that caught me off guard that made me suspect anything, which is why i'm really surprised about what happened. >> so the mother says the police have got it all wrong. a classmate says they were just normal guys. >> then what their uncle says. >> i say what i think was behind it being losers and not being able to settle themselves and there by hating themselves. >> pretty harsh criticism. >> i was struck by that when he said that. i can still remember it. the wife of the eldest bomber is very distraught. that according to her lawyer. her family issued a statement on friday saying we know that we never really knew tamerlan tsarnaev.

our hearts are sickened by the knowledge of the horror he has inflicted. >> as you can see, there are lots of different perspectives. the problem is finding out who the real tsarnaev brothers are. >> the one thing that they do know is that they made pressure cooker bombs. our david mack ka any went to the desert research center to recreate the bombs used in terrorist attacks. >> reporter: at this remote testing ground experts from new mexico tech replicate bombs. on this day there's a sense of urgency. >> reporter: after boston, what are you worried about? >> you're always worried about copy cats. are more and more people going to be using this. >> reporter: this is a pressure cooker bomb, similar to the bombs in boston, and we're about to set it off. going to do the countdown? in the wrong hands we know how deadly this bomb can be. we're not taking any reasons.

for safety reasons we're going to retreat. we are 1/4 of a mile from where we left that pressure cooker but that's still not far enough to avoid flying shrapnel so we're watching from inside a bunker. >> 5, 4, 3, 2, 1. >> reporter: wow. that white smoke looks just like what we saw in boston. >> yeah. >> reporter: i could feel it all the way up here. >> oh, yeah. sha shock wave will travel all the way. >> reporter: but down below is the real shock. >> at this point we're looking for fragments. >> reporter: one bomb turned into thousands of weapons scattered more than 100 yards. this was part of the pressure cooker, now mangled and razor sha sharp. no wonder so many people got hurt. shot out like bullets, they pierced plywood. some melted from the heat. >> look at the back of it. >> reporter: how fast were they

moving? >> they can travel 1,000 to 2,000 feet a second. >> reporter: that's faster than sound. >> these will get in front of the shock wave and hit you before the pressure wave does. >> reporter: you're hit before you even hear it? >> that's right. >> reporter: hear's what the blast looks like using a high speed camera. an intense ball of fire less than 20 feet across, but watch the white rings on the desert floor. that's the shock wave. engineers studying this blast say there's a lesson here for first responders. >> reporter: let's say i'm a first responder. >> there's a lot of shrapnel. very hot, very sharp. you could easily cut yourself. there could be unexploded order nanlts. that could go off. >> reporter: for potential bystanders, there are only words of caution. by the time you hear the boom, you could already be hit. awareness of your surroundings

could be the only defense. david mattingly, cnn, secora, new mexico. >> imagine that on a crowded street. that's what happened. >> incredible reporting from mattingly. >> we'll be back with more after this. [ male announcer] surprise -- you're having triplets.

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eight years ago today a certain website opened what changed what people do on the internet. youtube opened on this day in 2005. this was the very first video posted. >> all right. so here we are at the elephants. >> that's the co-founder at the san diego zoo. look at those images. pretty primitive by today's standards. careem and his partner sold to google the following year over $1.5 billion. that's the first video. what about the most popular video? >>. ♪ gangnam style yes, that man. that would be psy's gangnam style. youtube has also become the number one source of viral videos, like this post from a russian user.

take that in. the cat playing with a vacuum cleaner. believe it or not, this video is the most watched this week. >> you know something about cats and the internet, i have no idea. the numbers are staggering. more than 1/3 of everyone on the internet visits youtube. for those cats, 72 hours of video uploaded. and most of it seems to be cats. manufacturing data from the exporting centers of asia in europe driving the markets. nina did he santos is in london. let's start with nina. >> thanks so much. markets, as you can see here, starting out a little bit of a mixed notes. the dax is actually down in the first hour and a half of trading. as you said, a lot of it has to do with, of course, concerns about the strength of europe's biggest economy, germany. let me just run into the purchasing manager's index, the pmi for the month of april. that came in at 47.9.

i might point out that anything below 50 indicates a contraction for manufacturing, hence, the reason why people are quite so concerned. so the readings for germany came in at a four-month low. that's concerning because germany is supposed to be a locomotive of growth. it's managed to spirit off a recession. many are hoping this country will be able to drag the other troubled eurozone companies out of their predicament. the first time in five months there's strengthening. it's a similar picture for the rest of the eurozone. the rest of the eurozone tmi number came out identical to the german figures at a four-month low. there is a surprise rebound though for manufacturing in this country, in france. not some of the reasons why the kaka rant is up. it's the biggest gainer. we do have the french pmi at a

four month high where as the german pmi was at a four month low. there was discord about whether we should be seeing a pharasy. they have said spending cuts alone are not the answer and that is one of the reasons why we have these mixed messages but really, today, everybody is looking at the manufacturing data and also looking out for the key earnings coming out to the united states which should be out in a few hours time. let's go over to pauline. >> nina, manufacturing is definitely a theme because manufacturing data for the month of april in china moved the markets lower today. let's take a look at some of the effects it had in the major indices. hsbc showed chinese factories are showing down compared to march. as you can see, that had a definite toll on the shanghai

composite which sank even lower after that date at that came out and ended the session down by more than 2.5%. the hang seng ended down by 1%. this pmi reading of 50.5 shows china's manufacturing is still in expansion mode, but just barely. it shows chinese exports have been down because of weak global demand. this can be revised but it adds to those broader worries about china ever since last week's first quarter gdp numbers showed it is slowing to 7.7% gdp. the nikkei lowered to 7.7%. most of this is profit taking after we saw those gains from yesterday. in the aviation sector, japan's transport ministry said today that it will make a final decision whether it will allow the dreamliner back in the air on or after this thursday. this comes after u.s. regulators approved boeing's plan to fix the lithium ion batteries.

al nippon airlines has the largest fleet. now let's take a look at the share market for a moment down in sydney. you would think that it would have reacted to the chinese hsbc flash pmi numbers but, in fact, there was another factor that drove the share market higher. that was an oil and gas company called woodside petroleum. it announced a surprise dividend, rather generous. that pushed it higher. that's a look at how things look in the asian pacific region. back to you in atlanta. >> pauline, thanks. still ahead, the boston bombings were over in seconds, but for many the scars will last forever. >> dawn's life was changed in an instant. she speaks to cnn next. i had some lebanese food for lunch.

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bombs exploded in quick succession killing three people and injuring more than 170. one week ago, 50 people still remain in hospital, two are in critical condition and at least a dozen survivors have had amputations. >> one of them, adrian davis, is a remarkable woman, a dan instructor, a dance instructor who lost her foot and part of her leg. she was watching the marathon when they were hit by the second blast. anderson cooper has their story. >> i hate to ask you to re-live what you went through so if you don't want to, that's totally fine. >> it's okay. i re-live it every day. >> you think about it every day? >> i do. absolutely. >> how close were you to the second explosion? >> i was right in front of it. right in front of the business where it was so i felt the direct impact and it immediately blue off my left foot. >> how far away was the bomb, do you know?

>> my guess, it would have been about five feet. >> five feet? >> yeah. we're lucky to be alive. >> did you lose consciousness? >> i don't think we did. >> no. >> i remember everything so if we did, it was for a matter of seconds. >> you remember being blown through the air? >> yeah. >> what happened next? >> i landed and -- and sort of closed my eyes and was underneath adam and kind of covering my head and my face. it was very gray and quiet. great smoke and ashes and a lot of debris falling. and i remember telling adam, oh, my gosh, i'm alive. he said, i'm okay. i'm okay. are you okay? oh, my gosh, are you okay? and i said, i think we're okay. i couldn't believe it. i couldn't believe that we survived and that we weren't hurt at all. and i didn't feel any pain. i had no idea what was -- what had happened. and then i sat up and i tried

to -- he said, we've got to get out of here. i sat up and tried to move. i said, oh, my gosh, my foot. there's something wrong with my foot. and he lifted up my leg, and we just lost it. adam had a lot of blood all over his pants. it was hard to tell his injuries and my injuries because of the amount of blood everywhere. but i know he was hurt at well. >> what did you do then when you realized what had happened to your foot? >> just went into survival mode. i went into, i've got to do something about this. i can't lose my foot. >> that went through your mind? >> yeah, i can't lose my foot. i've got to get it somewhere safe and clean and i've got to get something wrapped around it. and then i grabbed the door open with my elbow and crawled into forum dragging blood and asked a couple of people for help and finally received it, got a couple of people to do a tourniquet. adam was shortly behind me. i had wanted to stay with him

but my brain was just on, i've got to get to somewhere clean. i'm losing so much blood. >> what you did do? >> i followed behind her. i mean, she really helped jump kick some of me, too. we've got to get maybe somewhere where we can lay down a little smarter where we could get a tourniquet around her leg, you know, start doing a little basic like shot triage stuff. so we crawled into forum and from there it was -- i remember her legs were over mine. i had one belt, another guy had come over with another belt and we were just, you know, as much as i could leaning back trying to put as much pressure as i could from the belt. >> my belt came from me. >> you took off your belt and tied a turn any cut? >> well, i just put the loops. not the best tourniquet. >> you were basically just pulling tight? >> yeah. >> when do you realize the full

extent of the injury? >> i think when we were in forum. we were bouncing between tying the tourniquet faster, this may be the last minutes together and i'm so sorry for anything that has ever happened. it's hard to not get emotional thinking about it but it was -- we were going between safety and helping each other and helping his injuries also and saying what we needed to say to each other. >> in case you didn't make it. >> in case we didn't make it, yeah. >> tying those tourniquets on the scene, that probably saved you? >> it probably did. i'm thankful for adam for helping. i thanked him a lot. >> when did you realize you didn't have a foot? >> i woke up and my parents were there. i hugged them and kissed them and i said, mom, can you help me? i'm -- i feel like my foot's falling asleep because it feels like my ankle is falling off of the pillow and my foot is half on and i realize that now that was phantom pain.

she looked at me and said, adrian, you don't have a foot. your foot is gone. i just lost it. it's really hard to hear. >> you're determined to dance again. >> i am. yeah. >> dancing is really important to you. >> it is so important to me. it's my life. >> what about it? >> dancing is the one thing that i do, and i said this many times, but dancing is the one thing that i do i don't feel like i should be doing anything else ever. i feel so free and so wonderful. i'm big on music and i feel like all of us when we hear music we kind of move to the music and i feel like -- >> i don't. i stay rock solid. i'm a bad dancer. >> we're going to change that. i told you. i'm going to teach you. >> i would like that. i would like that. >> that's okay. i'm going to hold you to that. now it's on camera. but i -- i feel like it's just such a freeing thing. it's such a big part of my life and part of my life also is

being able to teach people how to do that. so not only is it big in my life for me and an outlet for me, i get to share that and see it developing in other people. >> you want to run the race next year? >> i do. i can't believe i said that. adam's been making fun of me the whole time. i can't believe you said that. you're not a runner. >> you're in the a runner at all? >> no, but i wasn't a ballroom dancer at one point in my life either. >> so you're going to do it? >> i'm going to do it. >> i hope to be on the finish line. i would like to say i hope to run with you. >> that's okay. we'll conquer dance lessons and do the marathon next time. >> sure. little by little. >> little by little. >> you can get me dancing and running, i will be dnchts if i can get me running i'll be really angry. i'm not angry 100% of the time but i'm angry. i think when someone tries to stop you from doing something or

something happens in your life where it's not exactly what you expected, you have to conquer that and you have to -- you have to find the better side of it. it's not something that -- i don't know, i don't want to -- i don't want that to be the end. i don't want this to be the end. i'm only 32. i don't want this to be the end. so whether it's, you know, running the marathon or walking the marathon or crawling the marathon and being the last one across, i'm okay with that. i didn't say i'd win it, but i am defiant. i want to -- i want to come out stronger. >> you have to find the better side of it. can you imagine she said that one week after her foot was blown off? >> he accepts the anger but doesn't choose to let it define her and held her back from healing. >> unbelievable.

the people of boston took another step towards healing on monday. ♪ >> this solemn ceremony held at the site of the deadly bombings on boylston street as federal investigators wrapped up their investigation and turned the area back over to the city. >> the flag that had flown at the site was lowered and presented to mayor thomas menino to mark the occasion. well, at the end of a very tough seven days for boston, a group of women who weren't able to finish last week's marathon because of the bombings decided to look tragedy in the face and keep running. >> >> monday they got back on the route literally and they finished the race. no medals, no cheering crowds at the end, just a poignant and determined statement made with running shoes that boston keeps going. our time is done, but for viewers in the u.s., cnn's continuing live team coverage of the aftermath of the boston team

bombings continue with john berman in boston and zoraida in new york. >> i'm isha sesay, thank you for >> i'm isha sesay, thank you for joining us. -- captions by vitac -- www.vitac.com